Blogging has been uber hard for me, but inspiring as well. After taking Holly's Blogging You Way class, i've gotten a better grasp of the blogging world, but i still deal with the anxiety i've always felt with it. :( 

But tonight, while reading the 'up up creative' blog, [a creative business lady i both admire and feel inspired by] i noticed this little GEM in her bio; 

"... a post-partum depression & anxiety survivor. if you found me because of that, definitely read through the archives, reach out and say hi, and more than anything else just hang in there"

...and i suddenly felt less alone in this blogging world, knowing that it's okay that I'm suffering through a lot of things in life, in general, and even MORE...that's it's OKAY that I'm SHARING it with all of you. 

My MAIN goal in my life is to inspire, and i do hope, by sharing my life and my struggles with all of you on this blog, that one day someone will read my blog and think 'hm...i feel less alone in the world too'. 

I hope you've had a BEAUTIFUL thanksgiving week, and i look forward to writing more openly to ya'll soon.

-jenipher

It's such a shame.

I'm taking this AMAZING blogging course by Holly from Decor8 and all i feel is paralyzed by blogging.  - that my blog isn't pretty enough, or smart enough, or inspiring enough.

It's very hindering; these feelings...  especially when i am CONSTANTLY inspired by everything i click online.

I have trouble being completely  paralyzed by EVERYTHING i need to do in order to be a good blogger, a  good business person, successful enough to survive, etc.

I have trouble figuring out what the right FIRST steps to take are in this social networking world are...

I don't actually consider myself a jealous person  necessarily, but i always feel like I'm behind, and could never be 'as  good' or as 'interesting' as other people. I truly am not trying to  compare myself, but right now, i feel like there is so much to do to  'catch up' and that there is SO MUCH inspiration online, that i get  distracted or want to do everything, which makes me lose sight of what  makes me genuine. 

What breaks my heart the most is knowing i've dealt with these emotions for SUCH a long time! Years! And the that it's been hindering my growth for years, seems so very heart wrenching...

Does anyone else feel these heavy feelings? I don't feel as though i am alone in this boat, but sometimes the boat swishes through the waves, and i don't hear any other voices.

It's quite daunting.

I hope you had a WONDERFUL weekend!

Jenipher