I know i haven't posted in a while.
Life has been drowning me for a while.
I have been sick.
Physically and Emotionally.
Life is about ebb and flow.
And i am trying to sail between the two of those.
While still having faith it will. get. better. soon.

I see the light at the end of the tunnel.
It may even have a cupcake at the end of it.
I have faith and hope, and trust that I will feel better soon.
Everyday helps.
Even when it doesn't.

I hope you are all well.
Are having a lovely holiday season.
Stay healthy!
Stay optimistic!
And be patient.
Life is unfolding as we speak.

It is and will be glorious!

One Year Ago today...



was a really complicated day actually....

i'm very thankful that hearts have the ability to heal...
....and even sprout over time.
that we, as humans, are able to forgive; ourselves and others.
that things WILL get better.
that each time something unexpected happens...
that we DO heal.
that other things BLOOM.

Until all of those things happen though...
thank goodness for THIS math problem!


Thank you to ALLLLLL of those who have helped me heal, and loved me; even on my worst hour. It's been a roller coaster of a year and i'm so incredible blessed to have the support system i've had over the last 365 days. [and still do!]

I'm always incredibly amazed that people really love me. [even when i forget they do]. God is good, and keeps reminding me!! [over...and over....]

I am loved.
and SO. ARE. YOU!

Have a lovely Sunday,
Jenipher


Nightly Contemplations... are you an enemy?



Do you ever feel like two different people?
I do.

In general, i do feel our society dwells on the negative much more then the positive and it breaks my heart. I'm no different then anyone else.

In fact, if anything... i'm probably worse.

I'm very positive and optimistic for everyone else [most of the time]. But i'm so negative and hateful to myself, that there are days i honestly don’t even know how i get by.

It’s a constant battle, these two people inside me. One; the person i KNOW i really am, the person i want to be. The other; well, the other is the biggest “Debbie Downer” I can ever fathom. I am constantly and continually bewildered by how screwed up i am. And how my perception of myself is so skewed.

it's quite frustrating .... and more then that. it’s VERY VERY draining.

Do you ever feel this way about yourself? Are YOU, your own worst enemy at times?



My mom gave me a book to read while i was down visiting. It's helping her, which is a glorious thing. I'm reading it and find it INCREDIBLELY truthful and humorous. Maybe you will like it too. :)


Life is TOO beautiful. TOO precious. And WAY TO MUCH of a gift to consistently let it us down!! We all have to fight these negative demons away!!! It’s NOT easy, and infact VERY hard at times, but we WILL concur this.
TOGETHER.

I have faith in all of us!
I hope you do too.

Love, Smiles, Thanks, and Cookies to YOU beautiful lady!! [or gentleman!] ;)
Jenipher


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